Well, alas it is the sad truth. I have to start over. I know some of you are probably thinking, "eh... no biggie, you know you can do it."
While other's are probably thinking, "YOU IDIOT! How could you do that to yourself again?!!!"
And then there are those who are with me in thinking, "HOLY CRAP BATMAN. I have to do THAT all over again??!" Boy am I in for a ride. *insert face palm here*
Last year I got down to 234.
Right now I'm at *cough* (I will divulge in a week... lets just say I AM starting over.)
And lets add that HOODIES are NOT my friend right now...
My husband is coming along for the ride this time too!
This makes me happy since I am the one that kept bringing home the junk for him
to eat right along with me. :( Poor guy!
This is where I used to be:
But this is where I want to be (a little more rounded out and soft, just like
the hubs likes it! haha!)
And this is where Josh and I will be together at the end of this!:
I love my family. I adore my children. And I love my new home. With all of that I still fight the war against over-eating. I scoff at people who try to tell me how to fight it... when they have never been there themselves. It is a fight I will have for the rest of my life. But I want to have that life... and so I will sacrifice this year of yummy pleasure eating to a torment of hell in the gym and nasty tasting food that will kill the taste buds, so that my children will have a mom AND dad as they grow. (Whew! That was a terrible run-on sentence, wasn't it?)Because... aren't my children worth it?
Wasn't she worth all the weight in the World?
...And aren't Josh and I worth it?
I would like to think so...
So come along for the ride because it is going to be a rough one full of silly moments and terrible disappointments. It will also be full of triumph and friendships that are tested... and I can use ALL the encouragement that is out there.
Because aren't we all beautiful?
4 comments:
Good luck Nichole!
I know you can do it. While I don't have any weight I'm trying to loose, Brian and I need to change our lifestyles and eating habits so I'll join you on this journey. Let's encourage each other. Give me a call whenever you feel lazy or discouraged and I'll do the same. Maybe it will give us an excuse to talk more often :)
Totally going through the exact same thing as you, ONLY I don't have a baby to show for it. Looking at the scale, however, and realizing I've eaten myself right back to where I was is so so so discouraging. I so do not want to be here.
But it is the reality of my insane compulsive eating over the past couple of years. What ever did I expect?????
Anyway, Starting Over is so much better than continuing on, don't you think? Can I start over with you, too?
Way to go! I need to get back on the bandwagon too. I'm also going to be starting completely over. Bummer!
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