The Little Voice in my Head...

Like I said in my last post I was going to read through the book, "Just 10 Lbs" and keep a sort of journal as I chug along. I'm a very critical reader (a sorry fault of mine) so don't take what I have to say as gospel (good or bad) because you may miss out on something that could really benefit you! We're all very different people with different experiences and beliefs. This review is just one person's opinion. I hope you take the time to make one for yourself. :)

Reading through the book I have found a lot of solace in several sections that I have read. The author Brad Lamm came up with 10 steps to help the "overeater" overcome and conquer this horrible battle. They include:

1: Live the Love Centered Diet.

2: Start a Moving Meditation.

3: Develop a Daily Practice.

4: Appreciate Your Body.

5: Love Yourself Thin.

6: Maintain Loving Connections.

7. Eliminate Excuses

8. Examine Your Battleground Beliefs

9. Connect with Higher-Source Thinking

and step 10: Pay it Forward.

In the first section you learn, "you are how you eat" and even get to take a test to learn what kind of eater you are. I am the EMOTIONAL eater.

Of course I already knew this.

When you find yourself eating because you are lonely, bored, happy, sad, and/or angry you KNOW that you have a bad relationship with food. It's the facing it head on and breaking free from the mental bondage that is hard. Lamm is adament that repeating healthy and good words of affirmation are important to healing yourself. Surprisingly enough I actually like this.

Yesterday I took the time to practice what I read and sat on my bed for a couple of minutes to just meditate and appreciate the life that I have. I then repeated to myself that "I am beautiful" and other phrases that are more personal to me.

When I was done I looked up into the mirror and actually saw beauty there, and it was peaceful. I haven't felt pretty or beautiful in awhile. The disease is a BIG voice in my head that tells me every day that I am not worth anything. This voice tells me when I do mess up and eat something I shouldn't that I always knew I couldn't do it. That I might as well continue to eat anyway because nothing I do or say will fix me.

THIS VOICE IN MY HEAD IS WRONG.

Something I've learned recently in an interview with my church leader, my Bishop, is that I (and every one of you) are all divine children of Heavenly Father. Of course I've grown up hearing those words every Sunday and Wednesday but never really listened to those words. Heavenly Father made us in his image- therefore I can't be ugly. How can I hate something that our Lord created? And most importantly, that voice in my head? That's satan. That voice in my head is the devil trying to make be believe I am less than what I really am... a daughter of God.

Now when I read in the book that I should take some time every morning to repeat words of affirmation, chant and pray I actually ROLLED my eyes. Can you see me now CHANTING in my bedroom? That just sounds a little- whacko?! Not me AT all. But I continued reading and really can appreciate the wisdom behind it. I will take it upon me to say prayers in the morning asking for help every day, and I will continue to repeat to myself how amazing I am. And soon will walk tall with truth behind my gait instead of the quite hatred I've held in my heart.

I will also promise, however, that you will NOT be hearing me chant any time soon. I just might die falling off the bed convulsing in laughter. :) And that can't be healthy either... haha!

The next section I've started is Appreciate Your Body. I have a lot to learn and I'm excited to have found this book... because for someone who has been on this journey for almost a year- I still have a LONG way to go.

And I hope you take that journey with me.

Love Nichole